This is going to be a bit of a stream of consciousness so bare with me.
Unless you've been living under a rock, I'm sure you've heard by now that Michael Jackson has died. Sadly, Farrah Fawcett died too, but her death was overshadowed by the passing of the King. It's sad that even the dead must compete for attention in this celebrity obsessed culture.
Death has been on my mind a lot lately. My father, who has been battling cancer for years, is finally dying. I am literally watching him disappear. Every bit of what defined my father to me is gone.
On the flip side, life has been on my mind a lot too. Watching my father die and the recent deaths of MJ and Farrah has made me realize that life is right now. This is something I've always known, but it's not something I always live by.
It feels like everything is ending for me. My father is dying and I'm losing a lot of old friends for various reasons. On the flip side I'm gaining a lot of new friends and doors are opening for me in terms of my career and life. Maybe that's what it's all about. To gain something you have to lose something. That's life. People die and babies are born. It's a cycle that never seems to end.
So right now, in this moment, there is nothing to fear. Outside forces and circumstances change form but I'm still here on my journey trying to make the most of it until I die.
Same as it ever was, same as it ever was. Peace.
Yeah that's a shame about competing in death!
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Dear Yeshua, so sorry to hear about your fathers health. Your recent comments about your personal life become clear. I agree, it seems life is a constant cycle of birth and death. Not only in terms of people we love, but also concearning season of life, opportunity and relationships. It is both difficult and fortunate to know a loved one is going to pass on, and so having time to say all that needs to be said. The change (or passing) can be frightening and sad, but it can also be a point in life bringing the cognizance of shining hope and peace. It is my prayer the latter is true for your dear father. Shalom
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